Okay I Have Put My Father 2 The Test. He Says That Im Coming 2 Seattle 2 Live W/ Him And His Wife And So Im Happy. I Loved Seattle When I Was There And I Miss Having Places 2 Skateboard And Surfing In The Summer. And Other Stuff Too, Since The List Could Go On And On. But Let's See If He Fails Me. Got A New Skateboard And Im Celebrating On The Inside; Its Such A Great Feeling. I Cut The Front Sides Of My Hair But You Wouldn't Be Able To Tell Since I Create Hairstyles That Sometimes Cover Those Areas. No More Brother! Yep, He's Going 2 Basic Training For The Air Force On The 25th. Im Proud But Hopefully I'll Be Gone Sometime After That. Because I Honestly Cannot Put Up W/ Mother Dear Forever. By The Way I've Suddenly Become Smitten W/ Mp3 Players On My Webpages. They're So Rad And I Put Alot Of Kickass Songs On One I Made On Loudfusion.com. Whoever Reads This Should Check Out My Other Pages. Im On Myspace,Tagged,Loudfusion,Yahoo 360,Sconex And I Think Those Are All. I May Have Provided The Links But If Not Then Here They Are:

http://www.myspace.com/byrdgangcezar
http://www.tagged.com/scarface_cezar
http://www.loudfusion.com/profile.php?id=41725
http://360.yahoo.com/my_profile-0RFTmZ0ieKeS9RYKbCo7MtzO7IWNLw--;_ylt=Agjdy2eD7bdxa8Z1wEK0DB60AOJ3?cq=1
http://profile.sconex.com/scarface_cezar

So Check Those Out!
Arrivaderci Or Until I Find Something Else 2 Say..

Current Location: Nowhere
Current Mood: contemplative
Current Music: Bullet For My Valentine

I Wanted To Allow Some Time Between The Last Time I Wrote And Now So That There Might Have Been Some Exciting Events To Include In This Post. But Sorry, There Aren't Much Interesting Things To Say. I Went Job-Hunting Again And Im Hoping That Im Hired By Somebody. Im Seriously Sold On The Idea Of Getting My Version Of A Mohawk, And I Cant Wait To Color It Purple And Green. Havent Talked 2 My Unreliable And Sporadic Father, And I Hope I Dont Have 2; I Have Really Nothing To Say To Him. My Mom's Birthday Was Just Like An Ordinary Day. It Seems That I Dont Know What Day It Is Anymore: Im Always Shocked 2 Know That It Is A Thursday Or A Sunday And It Never Feels Like The Actual Day It Is. 3 More Days Until My LG Chocolate Phone Comes In The Mail, Cannot Wait!!! Wishing I Had A New Skateboard. Im Totally Off Since I Dont Go To School Anymore. Um Made Some Cool New Friends On Myspace, Thanks To One Of The Many Whore Trains, (In Which I Never Have Enough Friends To Join So I Add The People Who Are Already On It). Going Through A Heavy Black Cloud Era Right Now Where Everyone Seems Dense And Senile And Everything Looks Hopeless. Oh Wait A Minute,(I've Been Going Through This Era Since Coming Back To Virginia!) *Supreme Sense Of Re-Confirmation*. My Social Security Card Is Coming In 14 Days & Im Starting My Bank Account On Friday. Wish I Had More Money 2 Deposit, But I Have A Better Idea Of What To Do With It Once Its In There. The Coming Of September Means 5 More Months Until I Move Out Of The Sh!thole Home And State! Oh Yeah, Maybe During This Month I'll Get The Snake Bites.(I Really Do Want An Owl And A Snake, And Is It So Far-Fetched That I Want An Ostrich?). Just The Thought Of Being Given The Old Heave-Ho On My 18th Birthday Puts Confidence In My Step. Even If Im Out On The Streets, This Is Really My Chance 2 Be Independant And Make Something Of This Pathetic Life Im Forced 2 Say Is My Own. WISH ME LUCK!!!

Current Location: Mother's House
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: The Winds Of Plague-One Body Too Many

Well Now 2 Things Are Setting Me Back From Where I Want To Be In Life.

1.Mother Lost My Birth Certificate And My Social Security Card So Now I Cant Get A Job.

2.Since I Dont Have A Job I Cant Save Money For A Car Or To Move Back To New York When Im 18.

So Now Im At The Point Once Again, Where I Cant Do Anything To Fix Anything. Of Course Im Here Writing Songs About My Life, But They Are All W/ The Same Emotion Since That Is All Ive Been Feeling; Frustration,Angst,Gloom. It Seems Like Im Destined To Fail, Everything I Work So Hard To Achieve Ends Up Destroyed In My Face. I'd Love To Be Optimistic, But When There Is Nothing To Base That On, Whats The Point? I Wonder Will I Ever Accomplish My Goals. It's Not Enough To Dream, I'd Like To Acquire Success As Well.

Current Location: Mother's House
Current Mood: frustrated
Current Music: From First To Last-Heroine

This Year Im Really Experimenting With Different Colors In My Hair. Ive Gone Through 5 Different Shades. Scarlet Red, Blue Black, Pillarbox Red, Electric Lava, And Hot Hot Pink. I Loved Them All Except Blue Black, I Dont Like Dark Colors In My Hair. Next Time I May Try Purple Or Green. But Im Gonna Keep My Hair In Spiral Curls. Im Collecting Manic Panic And SFX Dyes As I Go. If There Are Other Color Dyes That Work Please Let Me Know. Im Also Thinkin About Gettin My Hair Cut In A Style Not Totally Short But Not As Long As It Is Now. Usually I Pin My Hair Up So It Appears Shorter Than It Is.But I Must Get A New Curling Iron To Curl My Hair. Im Waiting For My Bangs To Grow Back So My Hair Can Be Somewhat Even When I Decide To Get It Cut. I've Been Dreaming Up Different Hairstyles And Mixing Colors But I Cant Seem To Draw Them.